TCB (Taking Care of Business)

First day of the bravery challenge. So far the Facebook group is filled with great comments, sharing, vulnerability and motivation. I'm definitely in the right place. I needed to surround myself with others taking big steps to help remind myself of my own ability to TCB (take care of business).

Yep, I have on Bachman Turner Overdrive and I'm about to head out to face my day and the positive changes I'm ready to work on. The first step of the challenge though, is to journal about your motivations... fear or love? I figured whatever comes to me in these musings would be pretty appropriate for sharing. So many people in my life are working on big changes. I hope that my transparency is helpful.

Most of my life, my efforts have been motivated by fear. I wanted people to like me, to have a certain view of me. I felt I needed to Earn love and approval and I did not take good care of myself in that process. I cringe when I think of some of the things I used to say to myself to "motivate" movement or change.

I can honestly say that the changes on my plate now are from my passion. I love to teach, work one-on-one having amazing conversations and share what the Universe has taught me with others. I've been doing that last bit through my blog, but from a very safe space. I'm not face to face with someone who could reject me, I'm not attempting to charge for my services. Safe, safe, safe and tired, tired, tired.

I know who I am and what I am supposed to be doing. That's certainly more than I've ever had at any point prior to this but I'm still quite scared. The difference now is this is more a feeling of nervous anticipation, the butterflies in my stomach before diving off the starting blocks. (I swam in high school so my personal sports metaphors come from that realm, feel free to rearrange to your athletic or nonathletic endeavor of choice.) In fact, I think it took me until just this moment to really Know the difference. I've been thinking that stepping out in this way, making reiki and coaching my profession, scared me but I was just confused. I'm on to something great and I just have to put in the work to make it happen.

Taking care of business, every day. Taking care of business, every way.

And with that, if you'll excuse me, I have some business to attend to. :)