Saturday, September 21, 2013

Pretty Birdie

I am extremely excited about this new possession I have (courtesy of Alissia's mom. Thanks, Debbie!). It is a paper box with peacocks on it. Just looking at it reminds me of the feeling of being a small kid with a new toy, envisioning all of the endless possibilities. What will I put in there? Doesn't it look like it just can't wait to hold secret treasures? Even the texture of the box has me geeking out, just like when I get a new journal. What a happy happy Saturday. :)

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Goals on a Tuesday

This week, I committed to myself that I would blog at least twice. When I sat down to write, I felt like everything I had to say was aimless, already discussed on Facebook last week or just not my best and most inspired work. I decided to take myself back to a website I learned about during the 30 day blog challenge, 750words.com. I haven't been there since July but the idea is to sit down and get out three pages worth of writing in an uncensored fashion. My page isn't public, so it's really my online version of my journal but with the added bonus of the site telling me fun insights like my mood, most used words, how long it took me to write and of course, keeping track of word count for me.

For the fun of it, I'll share with you some of my stats for today:
I was feeling mostly Affectionate and concerned mostly with Success. My mindset while writing was introverted, positive, uncertain and feeling. The primary sense I referenced was touch.

While that part is really just novel and tickles me to see, I'm much more drawn to the new commitment I wrote down in today's 811 words. (I'm trying to become an overachiever...) I am going to commit to writing my 750 words on the site every morning for 30 days. Even when I don't blog or have something I want to share publicly, I always have words running around needing to find their way out of my jumbled brain. I was very resistant to this tool before but now that I'm not blogging every day, it seems like a great gift to myself.

I also had the thought "Tuesday September 17th, what an odd date to set a month long goal." It's not the beginning or end of the month. It's not even directly in the middle. It's not a very auspicious beginning. And in that, my friends, I'm finding a strange sense of beauty. There is no time like the present to become who I want to be or do what I want to do. Today I'm not letting minutia like the date, doubt or resistance stand in the way of my ability to get things done, feel good about my abilities and just generally set myself on a path in which I find value.

In this space of abundant will and creativity, I'm also resisting the urge to overcommit and set goals for any and every thing I've ever wanted to work on. I've been there before too and when I get overwhelmed, those goals just pile on top of me, feeling like lead and suddenly all of my "I CAN DO IT" is bogged down in "but I didn't and now I don't want to." Small steps. Today I am just focusing on rekindling my love affair with words and perhaps tomorrow will be the day to go fold up moving boxes in the basement. With gentleness and ease, I am taking charge of my space, mentally, emotionally and physically.

What do you want to accomplish today? What are you waiting for? :)